Currently Playing One Hot Minute By The Red Hot Chili Peppers Aeroplane & Walkabout see related

Just a short entry today...got TONS of work to do...

WOW!  I'm 18.  And because of recent changes, I do feel different.  I've got a brand-spankin-new eyebrow piercing and a beautiful new lambskin jacket, courtesy of my mother and father, respectively.  Woohoo!

I plan to get a credit card soon so I can get an e-bay account.  But I need a job first...  Too bad there are no elections this year, I want to vote (despite its relative futility)!

I've been listening to Bob Marley and The Clash a lot in the last few days.  Dunno why.  Right now I'm listening to the Chili Peppers and A Perfect Circle, but I've been listening to the former two most of the day.

Well, time to get my nose to the grindstone! (hah!  like that'll work.  I'm such an awful procrastinator!)  See ya's later, my pitiful underlings!

Currently Playing Undertow By Tool Swamp Song see related

I often find that I am living a paradox, in the way I express myself.  I am an artist at heart.  I love both percieving and creating art, and I am an abstract, non-linear thinker in everything I do (except maybe biology papers ).  But I find it so difficult to engage in the creative process.

As most of you know (or have gathered from my blogs), I take great care in the way I present my writing; in both the syntax and the language itself.  Its more instinctive than anything, not a direct decision each time I write, but that's not to say I don't like it or know I'm doing it.  I feel that accurate communication is extremely important to life, and on the web there isn't much other than written language to use for communication (other than emoticons!).  I place great importance in details, and I'm very analytical in both my learning and in my thinking processes.  It's an almost-perfect balance, but I feel that I don't have the ability for artistic expression that I wish I had.  That is not to say I trying to define myself as an artistic person or not (I'm not in bad faith), but what comes out is not always what I want to come out; what I feel is not always what I present to the world.

Often I find that I will come up with something and it will disappear before I can write it down or express it.  It's incredibly frustrating, and I can't find the motivation or the will to simply drop everything and find a notepad when I *do* think of something.  I can express my thoughts well enough (assuming I catch them in time), but expressing them in lyrics, poetry, or art is a task I find particularly difficult - I've always wanted to write poetry and never been very good at it.  It ends up sounding like prose.  Ahhh, I shall continue my ranting some other time.

Currently Reading Music and the Mind By ANTHONY STORR see related

What a strange week.  My sense of time is all messed up.  That's what holidays do to ya, I suppose.  I don't remember when things happened in the last week or so, and a lot of it is quite blurred.  And Sunday definitely didn't feel like Sunday, probably because we did Friday-style things   Wasn't the same without Jackie, though.  Speaking of Jackie, she came over today for some good ol' Jashering.  Fun'o'plenty, as she loves to say.

I've found that ever since I started visiting Jackie at work - the library - at least twice a week, I've been reading more!  When I'm waiting around for her I usually go on the computer and search crap...and end up taking out books.  Thus, I'm reading about four books right now, simulataneously.  Its both frustrating and great....I haven't read anything for general interest in a while beyond web sites, but I have a feeling I'm not gonna finish any of these books AND I'm gonna have overdue fines.  Yay.  Speaking of which, I paid my $25 in fines!  Woohoo! 

I'm feeling very odd right now.  I think its the half-tub of ice cream I had earlier.  I finished all of the Pralines and Cream.  I'm shaking and slightly disoriented.  Fucking sugar....  Worse than alcohol.

I just reached the height of geekyness: I watched three Star Trek episodes in a row.  I was really bored and lay down in front of the T.V.  Went to channel 50.  An episode of the original Star Trek series was on.  I watched it.  Then Star Trek: TNG.  Then Voyager.  Meh.  Terrible acting and corny as hell, but still enjoyable for a sentimental geek such as myself.  There's three hours of my life wasted!  Oh, and I drank a 750mL bottle of Perrier.  Yum. (FORGOT TO PUT LEMON/LIME IN IT!  AHHHHH!)

Wow, this sugar high is really uncomfortable.  I think I'll go burn some of this crap off doing pushups - quick&easy way to burn off sugar!  And when I'm sufficiently burnt out, I'll grab some protein and go ride my bike.  See ya!

Currently Reading The Benefits of Marijuana : Physical, Psychological & Spiritual By Joan Bello see related

Sorry about the big break folks, not used to this whole blogging thing... kinda time consuming.

But don't worry, I'll still yell at you all when you don't update often enough

Well, its already Tuesday.  Everything's moving so quickly.  Last week was...mostly uneventful, except for a *very* nice Tuesday evening with Jackie.  *wink wink*  Friday was loads of fun, first with Jackie (and Susandrew off in a corner somewhere) and then with the....oh, I guess we'll call it the cooktoxicating club.  I don't know any of these nicknames anymore, I just use the first one that comes to mind...  Smoked a nice J that Susan gave me.  Nice easy high, heady but not couchlock, though it hit kinda hard.  I gotta try some good skunk sometime...

Saturday I had an incredible afternoon with Jackie!  Went to see her at work and then we gallivanted around the city doing various things and scaring various people with our PDA.  She bought me an early birthday present; a Tool t-shirt!  I LOVE IT!  It's got Alex Grey art on the back, a la Lateralus (detailed human drawing, but without superficial elements).  Kickass shirt.  Fits quite well.  Suffice to say, I'm quite happy.  Aside from that, the whole afternoon was absolutely wonderful, I had such a great time with her (as always).  She's just incredible, and I feel incredible with her, and I feel the same from her.  Wow.  Today is our two-month anniversary!  I wouldn't have thought my first relationship would last this long...but somehow I'm not in the least surprised.  We get along *so* well and have a ridiculously healthy relationship.  We're very different people but compliment each other's personality perfectly.  We talk about everything and when we're together we act both like lovers and like best friends, its amazing.  I've never been as happy in my life as I am with her.  Okay.... I'll stop emo-ing now (you all know how much I LOVE emo... )

I've just been working on a World Issues assignment for which I had to make a PowerPoint for our presentation tomorrow on People of the Sun, by Rage Against the Machine.  Despite the fact that I had staying up to do work (or doing work in general...), it's a great assignment!  I made (IMO) a kickass PowerPoint and I think I'll do pretty well in the presentation tomorrow, I'm talking about the band and their history, message, etc.  Fun fun fun.

Yesterday I spent about an hour at home completely enveloped in my own little world, going around and around in a paradoxical spiral contemplating existence, morality, and freedom. Not unusual, but it was especially paradoxical this time.  Often I achieve a decent level of clarity but I was delving into areas I'm very unsure/unclear about.  Unfortunately, I don't remember exactly what I was thinking about.  Bummer; such is life.

I haven't gotten more than a page read in "Existential Psychotherapy"; still working on "Benefits of Marijuana" and some internet reading....not to mention biology.  I love the bio course, despite its difficulty level and fast-pace.  I seem to be getting the work done, though my quiz marks aren't as good as I'd like.  I'm not looking forward to seeing my midterm mark.  Nonetheless, I'm enjoying the course considerably and learning a lot.  Bio is usually the area where I do all my extracurricular reading (mostly genetics and neuroscience) so it's helping me get a decent background (some of it retroactively) for the material I read.  Yay.

Time for me to get to sleep, little buddies!  Sweet dreams all, don't bite the bed bugs.